D.O.W.N again

Felling gloomy,every single thing that's been happening is taking its toll on me..I now have a lot of time on my hands and the only thing that keeps on popping up is always about it. For which I figure it is a test from god and something better is gonna happen.

People can easily made their mind up by hearing one version of a story and not considering from any other sources. It's been running in my mind and I do hope that it isn't true...I hope a decision hasn't been made yet.

And why in hell did you even told her..I couldn't quite why do you have to drag her in this matter...It should be personal..she is innocent..she does not need to know about this...

I don''t want her to be burdened by these things..and yet..she is somehow involved...

It would have been better for her not knowing and let her dealt with her life normally...

I have to say that..I'm sorry for everything...
I'm sorry for ever dragging you in to this...
I'm sorry for all the troubles I have caused you..
I'm sorry for burdening you with something that is not even remotely your fault...
And I'm just sorry for all of the things that I have done to you...

Thanks for everything...

My Intentions

I know I'm not what a dream guy is all about
I know I'm not a perfect guy
I know I'm not gonna make u proud amongst your peers
I know I'm not the same as anyone else

But I do know that I wanna be with you,
I wanna see you everyday
I wanna hear your stories
I wanna know everthing about your day
I wanna hear your problems
I wanna see you giggle,I wanna make you laugh,I wanna have a good time with you,I wanna make you happy,

I wanna be there when you cry,
I wanna be there when you need someone,
I wanna be there when you giggle,
And not seeing you with a man that doesn't deserve you.

A man that makes you cry,
A man that doesn't appreciate you like I do,
A man that doesn't understands you,
A man that doesn't see the other side of you.

I wanna see you happy,
I wanna be with you all the time,
I wish and I wish

But life has it's own plan...
All I wanna do is to be the ONE for you.....
And treat you the way you should be treated...

yet another thing came..

Why???
why??
why?

I cant quite explain it even to myself...kenape?
Being in this path again and again...the same path and ended up being miserable again
seeing something the other day makes me realize...that I am destined to be this way....ntah kenapa tapi banyaknye ujian yang telah diterima...I m getting tired of it...I don;t know why I started it but I will always end up miserable..why just for one time I could end up happy?
these are the questions in my mind...why do I do it and it is just not gonna work for me...knape kalau bende tu takkan jadi...senang cite..firsttt skali aku takyah cube...yang mane yang akan jadi baru la cube...nape sme bende kene jadi camni...aku nie tak menarik langsung ke??ahahaah

tahla...

What the Hell was I thinking???!!!

What the Hell was I thinking???!!!!!..Hell nooo!!!...stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid decision!!!

Keep fishin'

Hey..been a while...I am just too lazy to start typing..must be the fats acting up and formed a mutiny...damn...ahaha...I am only blogging when I am bored or there is no other things to do...so bear with me

First of all..of all the people I was elected as a treasurer for my course's club.And being a treasurer is the suckest of them all...why was i even nominated...There goes the rule of not holding any position for the past 3 years...

And then comes my final examination,which is going to determine my scholar for the next semester...It sucks because one of the PNB guys up there (yeah u genius) decided the chosen applicant has to get 3.00 in cgpa in order to get the scholar.and I only made to 3.04..this semester doesnt look great people...So I am tryingto push a few stats and chemical process up my tiny little brain and hopefully score 3.00 for this semester..*crossing my fingers!*.

Owh..and I will be getting a brand new car....a saga BeLuM(BLM)..I wanted it to be black but then u have to wait and yada yada yada..so i took silver...silver is like so common and boring but then..what can i do..my natasha has already been sold to a guy..Natasha!!!I LOVE YOU!!!!..and I will never forget ur sacrifice!!and I havent come up for a new name for my car...maybe it is going to be aleesha??nice aint it??!!damn!!

I am planning to buy an Ipod nano for my self...for too long I had been planning to make steve jobs richer for another 600 bucks but I just did not have the time for it(actually no money..).Steve Jobs!wait for my 600 bucks!!!.......

Actually as u can see,the purpose of this blog is originally to see about a girl bla bla bla...Nothing interesting,I am still as I am(single) though I am currently enjoying life and set aside the relationship thingy...and u guess it..I dont tink I am financially capable of doing so.I am spending 130 bucks for a week and by th end of the week,my remaning allowance are only 25 bucks and which I didnt mention every saturday I would lke to enjoy myself for a couple of hours on a pool table...I realized that I am not going to be financially capable of having other people budging on my allowance.Of course la kalau nak keluar mesti pakai duit...All the stuff..birthdays,anniversary and all unexpected events happening.Besides,It is better fo me to use the allowance for my pleasure right??

I will try to post a few more but then kalau malas...Tak jugak nanti...
Thanks!

"Life is like coin collecting,It stopped being fun a long time ago...."-Homer j. Simpson

Reaching something that u cannot have...

I've been living the past few months trying to reach something that i know i can't get...and yet..I'm hoping to get it..but...the fact is that...it's not going to happen....In certain times...i do think that maybe..and just maybe..the odds of it happpening would increase but then..who am i kidding....this isn't a catchy romantic comedy movie or such whereas in the movie..miracle things do happen...I should have never try to reach it but what can i do..it's already too late...

I've said to myself...maybe i should just let it go...but then...i did make a promise...a promise that i will keep eventhough it strikes me in the ass...one day in my life...thinking something good is going to happen..but then...that was the day i've made a promise...blaming own self,warning about things...and then i said.."u dont have to worry about me..people who whine are only a sissy"..I promised that I wouldnt do that..and i have to keep it..

I do think that i have an exciting life...first of all..I'm fat..which is a bad thing...then..I suck at socializing with girls...second bad thing...and if thats not bad enough...girls that i've tried to hit on are avoiding me in any cause...jackpot!!..that is the life of one muhammad hakimi...ahahhaa..maybe thats the way of life...there are people with extremely lucky to have a good life but..I cannot change it..so..I'm just hoping something good is on the way....nak buat camne..redha jela...ahaha...

Looking forward

Hey!I dont really know what is happening to me but...suddenly i feel like posting a new post plak...ahahaha...so here goes..for the past few weeks i've been thinking about life itself...about how you cope your own life...and of course about having someone to share it with..But sometimes...you would wish that your life would be much simpler than it is..you wish u don't have to feel like i feel being lonely..you just wish that your life would be simple...in fact,I myself wish that i would wake up in one of the sitcoms like scrubs or any other sitcoms.you wake up..make people laugh..having 1 or 2 crisis that is totally not a crisis and there is always a possible solution for it and just living your day laughing all the way to bed and in the next morning..it starts again!!it would be fun if i can....but hey..what's life without any challenge from god ey??..But I think...maybe i shouldnt whine more about myself as there are others out there that is much much more desperate then me..hurm...